I never told you I was ready to talk again, you came to me online, wanted to talk about that girl, and I did talk with you because it seemed important.
Don't misunderstand this, just because I talked to you when it seemed you needed it doesn't mean I'm ready to talk and talk and talk, I'm simply not.
I'm busy as fuck with school work and art shit that needs to get done for the art show.
Again, you assumed I was ready to talk again because I talked to you then, maybe I should have clarified, But I did say I would be there for you when you needed it, but what I need is to be alone.
Why is there a huge double standard between us?
When you need something its "so unfair" if I don't give it to you, and If I need something, it's pushed aside because your need is above mine.
This doesn't seem fair, and don't get me wrong I want to be there when you need me, but I cant always bend over backwards to coddle you.
I don't think you realize all that sacrifices I make for you, and now that I can't handle those sacrifices at the moment, it's the end of the world for you.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad, and I don't want you to be sad, that's not my intent.
I feel really misunderstood with this ordeal, it shouldn't have even become an ordeal.
Your not a failure as a friend, your just not seeing things through my perspective.

My perspective: I am failing as a friend, because I cannot remove myself from my friends for awhile without causing a huge uproar, I never wanted people to be this dependable on me. Yes, I want to have a healthy relationship with people, an understanding relationship, but this seems impossible because I must be putting all my effort on others and none on myself to create peace and happiness among my friends.

Your asking what your supposed to do.
I'm not you, seriously, I am asking almost nothing of you, simply to understand that I have needs also, and where I am usually happy to go out of my way to make you happy, I simply cannot do that currently, this doesn't mean i want you to be sad or angry, i just want you to be okay without me, so that I can focus on what needs to get done in my life right now.

Also, I am fine, I am not lying when I say this, I'm doing just fine, don't worry about it.